26th
and i wonder if you’ll ever realize..
not just realize, but really know as deep as your heart can know something..
that i really miss you. i mean, it’d be tough. i have trouble convincing myself sometimes. most times, actually. but that’s just part of who i am. i am terribly bad at realizing things that matter to me, and even worse at showing the depth of my love and appreciation for these said people and things in a fashion that really conveys my emotional attachment.
you are about 7,000 miles away from me right now.
normally you are only about 174.
still the same distance in my mind. except at this great increase in number also comes a great increase in you forgetting me.
and you will. you say you won’t, but you’ll come back just as i said: new and needless.
and i’ll be sad i never did things when i could and should have.
how non-individual, and non-solely-this-time is this thought.
but that’s just part of who i am, all of these inabilities. so let happen what will based on unchangeable variables, i suppose.
